Secrets of a Broken Heart

There is hope for the future. In my case I had to survive the consequences of abuse and have my abuser die before the horrific memories and upheaval began. And then only with God’s help and grace. 

This is my story of how I travelled a road I knew nothing about. How for years God unlocked my subconscious mind to reveal the horror of my childhood.

The first stressful episode started when I left my marriage of 27 years, which for many years had already been dead.

The stressful events that took place in just one year, made everyone in my family believe that I was going mad or was already mad. Still the flashbacks and memories kept flooding out of my subconscious. I could not believe what I was feeling and seeing. 

I kept telling myself and my counsellor, that I must be mad or I was going mad. How could I make up all this garbage! There had to be something wrong with me.

Everyone kept telling me that there was no way that what I saw in my mind or felt in my body, could be true. It did not happen, so everyone told me.

Again God would encourage me, with verses like this from Isaiah: To fulfil my purpose and put things right, I will straighten ever road that he travels, he will rebuild my city, Jerusalem, and set my captive people free.

After working through these things with my counsellor for one year on the abuse of my childhood. I still find it hard to believe that all this has happened to me and that I have survived. I believe the words in Isaiah are for me as I start to rebuild my life.